Monday, September 6, 2010

I Live A Unhappy Life

everytime i cry alone in my room,
no ones know..
everytime i cry in my room,
forcing myself in a silent sound..
everytime i cry in my room,
thinking the sadness..
everytime i cry in my room,
thinking how you treat me that you not even know how is it..
everytime i cry in my room,
because all the sad thing in my heart is hurt to get it out,
and its pain...
how pain you wont know..

everytime i think back,
what i did wrong??
everytime i think back,
what i did that make u angry??
everytime i think back,
did my face look always make u unhappy, hate ma, mad at me??

everything i did,
is just wan u to be happy,
everything i did,
is just wan u to be smile always,
everything i did,
always make me to think,
did i wasting my time??
is because,
what i did is wrong..

everytime you give me the look,
i feel like i'm wrong.
everytime you give me the look,
it make me mad at you,
but i cant...
i have to act normal, and make u happy again...

you treat me not same as u treat bro,why??
you wont mad at bro when he did something wrong to you
but not same to me,why??

If you think when u buy things for me is call love me..
i'm sorry,
i just wan you treat me as how you treat bro..

is it because dad loves me more than bro, thn u hate ma??
is it what i did when i was a kid..
always cry, and a little bit thing
wan to scream and make bro bit by dad, thn you hate me??
and do u noe how bro treat me??
not always is me worng..
do you noe what he did to me??
ha.. of course you donno.. because he is your SON..
of course you will listen to him more thn me..
he always hit me,
bit me,
until my back have a scar
DO YOU NOE TAT??
oh.. ha
of course you don know...
because u working and is just me and bro at factory...

everytime u always angry,
because of dad
everytime u always mad,
because u always think we make u angry,
we all wrong,
u always need to look at our face.....

do u noe i'm the one always need to look at all your face,
you, dad, and bro...
what i did always don wan u all think me no use,
i always help my bro,
i just don wan him think that i'm not good enough..
because he always make dad not happy, and dad hate him..
what i need to do is cheer him up,
do everything that he wan me to do..
and you,
i always listen what you say,
say about dad,
everyone..
and u noe when you mad, and you angry..
make me feel sad and pain,
because you sick,
and i don wan u to not be unhappy...
and what you treat me??
you just not happy everything i did...

what i wan need is ur love..
not call u to buy things for me..
tats not call love..
i just wan u treat me like how u treat bro..
is thats all what i wan..
is thats all what i wan...




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