The Proposal

the proposal,
watch it today on tv, HBO!




















































the proposal.
is a traditional romantic comedy..
and have a perfect ending,
love it^^

SPM @ 26days + 8 days

29 octorber 2010,
study till midnight,
fell sleeply,
fall Asleep. . . .










31 october 2010, saturday

1 o'clock, wake up, look for my clock.


When to toilet,
brush my tooth,
get to my bed, and sleep.

31 october 2010, saturday
8o'clock something. . .
my bro woke up,
he go to bath,
and suddenly "BANG"
I woke up, I was like, "WHAT THE ...."
"WHATS WRONG???"
then i only knew that my bro was open his door,
I was very angry because when i'm not going to school,
and he always open the door loud till, like his banging the door,
I was very angry and said, take away the door so that you no need to waste your time to open THE DOOR!!!!!!!.....

after that he said sorry, and i fall Asleep again-.-{din heard a sound at all when his going out from his room}

force myself to study [SPM @ 23 days + 9 days]

time went till very fast,
went till i forgot what is the date today..
Ah~ is 29 of October
and my stress is becoming more and more and more...

this two days i din go for school cause I was very tired,
rest at home and force myself to study,
but i din.
i have,
but i feel i din have any revision in this two days...
keep play comp, and watch tv....
i scare that i cant get what i wan for my result..

family din force me to study,
din have any support from them,
but,
I Still Believe That I Can Do Without All This Support..

Force Myself To Study,
~Keep On Moving~

SPM @ 27days + 13days

SPM coming soon,
My birthday coming soon.
Hope will have a different celebration..

Today quite less people come for school..
bored like hell.
But still have a very interesting conversation with,
faye, polly, pui teng, yin yee, yew, yang and theng..

Pain Like Hell...

Pain..
I feel that all the time...
and is happen to me all the time...
and I cry,
and I cry all the time..
maybe I'm the one always bring trouble..

Is just suddenly happen...
After something happen...
nature said.. something that makes me feel pain..
The pain is like when you eat a 1/4 of the lemon..
and the taste of sour..
nature said..
you must know who give birth to you..
who take care of you when you small...
its say like me not treating the nature so good..
i mean like...
nature make me so pain...

I'm pain because the nature is sad..
I'm pain because the nature is angry...
I'm pain is because I feel like I'm the one who make the nature till angry and sad..

Its complicated...
if need to tell all,
maybe this post cant support it..

I really want To change my family..
Into a caring family..
I'm don't like this family..
If you know what happen to me and my family,
you will know what family do i have...
I wan someone to care more for me..
Is more good you treat me like my friend's parents like how they treat their children..
is just a suck life..
is really suck..

I don't wan it happen,
and I don't know why am I crying for this...
I just wan to do something let people to think me good..
so..
I'm doing the TWO-FACE job..
But,
now, i only know that this job is not suitable for me..
I really cant do this anymore infront for everyone...

P.s finished my trial exam, and waiting for my SPM..
and thanks jo lynn..
thanks for the word NATURE...

Account!!

Account make me crazy!!

oh my god..
account really hard enough for me..
I have to memories the formula.
I feel stress when about to have exam for account.
I scare is not enough time for me to do when exam,
and I have to get A for this subject.
I start my revision at 3 o'clock..
almost la..
and I test myself that I can use how long to do one set revision
[no plus paper one]
start at 3.30pm

Oh shit..
I use 2 hours to do 2 question
means in exam
I'm really not enough time to do 5 question..
Oh God..
I must practice myself to do faster and faster..

All this book on my study table is almost about 1 month,
and the position is still the same..
messy and messy -.-
I cant even force myself to clean it up.
because after i clean it up,
is still the same..
its will still messy..
I really Don't Know how to clean my room..
Therefore,
I will die after my SPM...

Another Boring Day.

Yesterday I play comp until very late,
I help Yen Ney find song,
and after that,
I told myself to play facebook after finding all the song.
and its make me so love to find song,
keep find, and ask someone that wanna me for help them find song..
haha..
I'm so 'mai' in finding song..
and after I found all the song for yen ney,
I on my facebook..
i play games, and i feel so sleepy,
and i told myself,
i cant handle it,
must sleep.
but I still keep on play.
until 1 o'clock,
I said,
Oh My God,
I really cant handle it,
must sleep..
I Off my Comp,
I immediately go to my room,
and off all the light,
and sleep on my bed..
Oh, i forgot brush my tooth,
Never mind..
when the turn to 3.30 o'clock,
i woke up,
I still saw the bathroom's light on..
I told myself,
Is it wan me to brush teeth only light off??[looks like I'm dreaming]
then I listen probably,
and i heard my brother haven't sleep.
I wan get up and call him to sleep..
but I still dreaming that I already told him to sleep.
and I wait for a while,
let myself to wake up.
Haiz..
I don care him and i slept..
I'm so tired that time,
and you all know what is the feeling that
someone wake you up when you just sleep,
and that moment is the moment that people sleep so.......
its like how people make noise and you never heard it..

and I wake up at 10.30am,
i wake my bro up at 11.15am.
If I din wake him up,
i think he can sleep until 12 something..

Today's day when so fast,
so fast 3 o'clock reach home after went for my breakfast,
No..
Thats not call breakfast,
is call brunch..
my mom brought us to jusco,
and I saw that boy again..
hehe..
he so nice and cute,
once I saw him,
I fall in love in him..
He sell watch at jusco,
just a little shop..
and
I think he is same age with me,
because 1st time i saw him,
he read science text book form 5,
hmm..
i still remember how the book look like,
that i even never touch the book, since i get it from school..

Oh my god.
I really miss him..
we din talk so much,
and i hope we get talk more.

my mom know it, haha..
she now always bring me to jusco..
walao..
I feel so shame...
and is on that day
I start to dress up myself to nicer,
because the 1t time I went to his shop buy watch,
i feel myself not like a girl.
Oh my god,
i still remember how i'm wearing..
its really not look like a girl..
oh my god..
for tat day,
i start to make myself to become more girl..
^^

mom bought me something..

wow...

mom bought me a mickey mouse 'ak'
[don't know how to say in english..]
let me show you some picture

nice leh..
hehe... love it very much..


trial exam is going to be over..
still left 3 subject,
account 2 and
ekomoni asas 1 (on Tuesday)
and
account 1 and
sivik ( on Wednesday).

now,
I can play comp for just 2 days,
and then
I have to do my revision..
hope my account will be easy like cow =)