Pain Like Hell...

Pain..
I feel that all the time...
and is happen to me all the time...
and I cry,
and I cry all the time..
maybe I'm the one always bring trouble..

Is just suddenly happen...
After something happen...
nature said.. something that makes me feel pain..
The pain is like when you eat a 1/4 of the lemon..
and the taste of sour..
nature said..
you must know who give birth to you..
who take care of you when you small...
its say like me not treating the nature so good..
i mean like...
nature make me so pain...

I'm pain because the nature is sad..
I'm pain because the nature is angry...
I'm pain is because I feel like I'm the one who make the nature till angry and sad..

Its complicated...
if need to tell all,
maybe this post cant support it..

I really want To change my family..
Into a caring family..
I'm don't like this family..
If you know what happen to me and my family,
you will know what family do i have...
I wan someone to care more for me..
Is more good you treat me like my friend's parents like how they treat their children..
is just a suck life..
is really suck..

I don't wan it happen,
and I don't know why am I crying for this...
I just wan to do something let people to think me good..
so..
I'm doing the TWO-FACE job..
But,
now, i only know that this job is not suitable for me..
I really cant do this anymore infront for everyone...

P.s finished my trial exam, and waiting for my SPM..
and thanks jo lynn..
thanks for the word NATURE...