Trial Exam

Hmm.. can say that is quite easy..
but for my additional maths,
Not good,
really hard..
damn hard..
and now exam,
very less online...
and stressful.
anything can let me to not be stress??

a lot of things need me to memories..



and now I learning yoga(by myself)..
a normal yoga..
is very easy,
sit in a position that make you comfortable..
and then listen to music,
a soft music,
breath in and out slowly..
5-10 minutes
then finish..
is very useful..
make me less from angry..^^

Exam

OMG... exam day is coming soon..
Everytime I always scare of it..
I really wanna to study,
but always don't want to do it..
and always just use the time to watch tv,
play computer and facebook..
don't even want to touch the book either...
I always tell myself,
why don't I just read it just for a few hours??
why don't I just be hardworking just for few month??
the SPM is getting soon too..
I really scare of it,
I wanna to get a good result,
Parent always said,
"study is for yourself,
not for us,
what you get is for your ownself,
how good you get your result,
is depend on how hard you put on this,
what you get,
is for your ownself..
weather you want your dream to come true or not
is depend on you.."

my parent is not same to others,
they din't push me,
they din't push me must have your study...
they din't said that can't play computer and anything,
they just treat me as normal..
but I really got think before..
is my fault or parent fault??

is my parent no time to take care me,
so that my result will that bad because they no pushing me??
but,
and now is I really feel that I have to work hard for this..
is just for few months..
is just for few weeks...
and after that,
I can let it go for few months until my SPM result comes out..
I can rest, I can go find work to do, I can do what I want to do..

my dream is to become a sucessful person..
I don't care weather I got Boyfriend or not,
I don't care how I look like,
I just want to be sucess..
To be an Actress,
To be a hotel management,
To be....
Wow.. is a lot...

my parent is right,
everything I did is for my own good...
and everything I have to do it by myself..
parent is really care for us,
everything they did, they think for us 1st..
but,
I don't know weather they do that for me??
I hope they will..

Weather they care for me,
or how they treat me,
and I had promise myself that when I turn out to work,
I must have to earn myself much more money to take care my parent,
this is my job
and
this is my responsibility to take care of them..

my dinner

Today I stay at home,
do the housework,
after that watch drama
while doing my homework.

and I eat my dinner^^ at 6p.m
brother bring us(me and mom)
to a shop that he have try before yesterday.

The shop named SUSAN'S
wow.. the food very nice, and delicious...

here are some picture I take at there.

its look so England style 0.0

oh~ I forgot what its call..
never mind,
~~its so delicious~~

Italian soda,
inside got a slide of lemon,
and its taste mango and soda,
some cream on top.. yum-yum-yummy :P


my brother order a sparkling juice,
wow~ I though is just like where I drank it before at secret recipe.
but wow~
my brother never know is that big too-.-
I still remember how the waiter act like.. haha..

this is we all order and share it together,
feel not yet full,
so
we decide to order this spaghetti..
this got egg and cheese..
umm~ i love Cheese.....~


and last we went home with stomach full :P
OMG.. I'm gonna be fat~

i'm so tired

i'm so damn tired
went out with my mom to factory,
helping my grandma,
sell mooncake.

get some salary from those mooncakes that i had sell out..

i wanna to introduce my cousin

this is my cousin
anson khoo,
cute right..
now I think he is
1 years half old,
he can walk,
and he likes boys-.-
is very happy to visit him,
because when we visit him,
he will always smile,
is that normal??-.-
haha,
whatever...

friendship~

Friendship isn't how you forget,

but how you forgive.
Not how you listen,
but how you understand.
Not how you see,
but how you feel.
Not how to let go,
but how you hold on.


I'm just a simple person,
my heart is just like a book,
the most thickest book in the world.
It depend on how you read me,
its simple,
just have to read it..
and its depend on how much you understand on this book.
Don't judge me by my cover,
it may look not really nice on you.
Look deeply inside the book,
and discover it..
you may know what person am I.


a friend like you..
I never regret that I have meet you on the 1st day..
I wanna to tell you something,
delete post doesn't mean can delete everything,
especially your scar,
that's true,
but,
if I can,
I WILL.

And if we hold it just for couple of mintues and hours,
breath in and breath out,
it wont happen to us again..
and I'm here to tell you one more time,
I din do it,
I know that the word that i speak through my mouth,
the word "believe on her"
will hurt you,
but
we will not do that such a childish things..

I Live A Unhappy Life

everytime i cry alone in my room,
no ones know..
everytime i cry in my room,
forcing myself in a silent sound..
everytime i cry in my room,
thinking the sadness..
everytime i cry in my room,
thinking how you treat me that you not even know how is it..
everytime i cry in my room,
because all the sad thing in my heart is hurt to get it out,
and its pain...
how pain you wont know..

everytime i think back,
what i did wrong??
everytime i think back,
what i did that make u angry??
everytime i think back,
did my face look always make u unhappy, hate ma, mad at me??

everything i did,
is just wan u to be happy,
everything i did,
is just wan u to be smile always,
everything i did,
always make me to think,
did i wasting my time??
is because,
what i did is wrong..

everytime you give me the look,
i feel like i'm wrong.
everytime you give me the look,
it make me mad at you,
but i cant...
i have to act normal, and make u happy again...

you treat me not same as u treat bro,why??
you wont mad at bro when he did something wrong to you
but not same to me,why??

If you think when u buy things for me is call love me..
i'm sorry,
i just wan you treat me as how you treat bro..

is it because dad loves me more than bro, thn u hate ma??
is it what i did when i was a kid..
always cry, and a little bit thing
wan to scream and make bro bit by dad, thn you hate me??
and do u noe how bro treat me??
not always is me worng..
do you noe what he did to me??
ha.. of course you donno.. because he is your SON..
of course you will listen to him more thn me..
he always hit me,
bit me,
until my back have a scar
DO YOU NOE TAT??
oh.. ha
of course you don know...
because u working and is just me and bro at factory...

everytime u always angry,
because of dad
everytime u always mad,
because u always think we make u angry,
we all wrong,
u always need to look at our face.....

do u noe i'm the one always need to look at all your face,
you, dad, and bro...
what i did always don wan u all think me no use,
i always help my bro,
i just don wan him think that i'm not good enough..
because he always make dad not happy, and dad hate him..
what i need to do is cheer him up,
do everything that he wan me to do..
and you,
i always listen what you say,
say about dad,
everyone..
and u noe when you mad, and you angry..
make me feel sad and pain,
because you sick,
and i don wan u to not be unhappy...
and what you treat me??
you just not happy everything i did...

what i wan need is ur love..
not call u to buy things for me..
tats not call love..
i just wan u treat me like how u treat bro..
is thats all what i wan..
is thats all what i wan...

Bored!!

Today,
Is yin san open house date,
sorry yin san,
i cant go,
coz my mom said,
if i go, will very late go home..
and no one will fetch me home..
hope i will be thr..
now 7.27pm
i think its start..
hope u all have a nice day..
hahaha..

today's dairy..

Today's Dairy,
wake up in the morning at 6o'clock.
go down and drink a cup of water,
go back to my room and go for bath,
brush my tooth,
wear my uniform,
comb my hair,
and go for school.
mom fetch me to school.
reach to school,
walk to my class,
that is a way far from the guard house..

school start,
1st is perhimpunan,
and thn
go up class for my subject,
p.moral subject,
later addmath..
talking in the class while add math period,
science teacher din come, keep talking.
recess time,
go down for my "breakfast"
after breakfast, science class AGAIN,
after tat,
BM,
bm ntg to do because after that we will go for
ceramah.
after the ceramah then we go for makmat,
then reach to home fetch by melissa's mom..

thank you melissa, and aunty..